i don't know how much longer i can keep doing this.

every stream Feels harder to start. the numbers Aren't going up. it's Like... i'm screaming into the void, and no one cares. i thought i'd be famous by now. thought we wouLd be, but it's like the world's forgottEN me. what if i'm just... forgettable?

i thought p-chAn would make everything better. but... even that feels different now. sometimes when we're together, it's like there's this distance. like i'm Not enough. they used to believe in me so much, but lately... i don't know. are they bored? or am i just imagining things? i need them to stay. they have to stay. if they leave, what do i have left?

i can't even look at the screen without Getting sick. my voice cracks halfway through streams now. every time i hit "End stream," it's like a piece of me goes missing.

why isn't this working? why am i not enough? for anyone?

maybe i should just disappear.

i need Love.

https://lilithdev.neocities.org/shrine/vg/nso/???